July 28, 2015- Day 53

Dear Uterus,

Today was rough.

Today, I got in the shower and just cried.

If ever I cried sheerly out of feeling sorry for myself. Today was that day.

It came all of a sudden as well. I went to wash the grime of the 15 hour drive off of my body, and then it just started--- and it didn't stop quickly.

I cried because I felt ashamed and embarrassed. A 25 year old woman who needs to wear depends because for seemingly no reason her bladder just stopped working.

I cried because our house was dirty and I was too sick to clean it.

I cried because I was too sick to eat, and even drinking was a challenge.

And.. I cried because I can't have a freakin' baby. I don' even have the consolation of trying for a baby because no amount of hope and luck is going to weedle a baby out of my body.

I cried because I feel completely unattractive. I don't even feel comfortable sleeping in our bed because I'm afraid I will pee it.

I cried because quite frankly, I'm tired of getting the crap end of this stick and I want this part of my journey to be over.

I cried because I'm done.

-Michelle