Dear Uterus,
It's interesting how the way this all has affected my reactions to things.
As a surrogate, I'd have liked to think I was keenly aware of the horrible thing it is to want a child and be denied. I mean, that's WHY I became a surrogate. That's why I did it a second time. I hated that I had one month of kind of trying and Boom, Pregnant. I didn't have any issues... I never experienced a loss...
If I saw a person, in person, online, on a tv show... that couldn't have children, I said "I'd totally carry her babies."
And I meant it.
Today, I was re-watching the TV show Revenge.
This episode, the main female character finds out she can no longer have children. She breaks down, falls to her knees and throws something.. and instead of saying "I'd have her babies", I said-- "I've been there." and I felt my heart clench for that fictional character in a way it wouldn't have before.
As with most things, you really can't understand something until you've been there.
-Michelle
It's interesting how the way this all has affected my reactions to things.
As a surrogate, I'd have liked to think I was keenly aware of the horrible thing it is to want a child and be denied. I mean, that's WHY I became a surrogate. That's why I did it a second time. I hated that I had one month of kind of trying and Boom, Pregnant. I didn't have any issues... I never experienced a loss...
If I saw a person, in person, online, on a tv show... that couldn't have children, I said "I'd totally carry her babies."
And I meant it.
Today, I was re-watching the TV show Revenge. This episode, the main female character finds out she can no longer have children. She breaks down, falls to her knees and throws something.. and instead of saying "I'd have her babies", I said-- "I've been there." and I felt my heart clench for that fictional character in a way it wouldn't have before.
As with most things, you really can't understand something until you've been there.
-Michelle
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