Dear Uterus,
I think the majority of surrogates can relate to what I'm going to say next.
You could be in the middle of your journey, pregnant or just finished, and you hear someone talking about matching, and you're a little jealous. I remember feeling that both times, first when I was pregnant with the twins, and second when I was pregnant with Baby Boy. That part of the process is exciting. It's like dating someone for the first time, you want to tell your friends all about how awesome the guy was.
So, it's an odd place to be-- where I'm at now.
I'm jealous of the girls matching, and planning their next journeys-- but I'm also jealous of the parents now.--That's uncharted territory.
As a surrogate you become more aware of just how many people there are that are struggling to have a baby. You see so many stories, and you want to help them all. You want to give everyone babies. You are one of the "able". You're not one of the "can't".
I used to be an "able", and now I'm a "can't".
So it's an odd place to be-- where I'm at now.
I don't feel entirely accurate calling myself a surrogate anymore. To mem that implies as if it's something you can still do/will do. You don't call yourself a teacher if you've now taken up nursing.
I don't know if I'm an Intended Mother-- I don't know if we will pursue a surrogacy for ourselves.
So, it's an odd place to be-- where I'm at now.
-Michelle
I think the majority of surrogates can relate to what I'm going to say next.
You could be in the middle of your journey, pregnant or just finished, and you hear someone talking about matching, and you're a little jealous. I remember feeling that both times, first when I was pregnant with the twins, and second when I was pregnant with Baby Boy. That part of the process is exciting. It's like dating someone for the first time, you want to tell your friends all about how awesome the guy was.
So, it's an odd place to be-- where I'm at now.
I'm jealous of the girls matching, and planning their next journeys-- but I'm also jealous of the parents now.--That's uncharted territory.
As a surrogate you become more aware of just how many people there are that are struggling to have a baby. You see so many stories, and you want to help them all. You want to give everyone babies. You are one of the "able". You're not one of the "can't".
I used to be an "able", and now I'm a "can't".
So it's an odd place to be-- where I'm at now.
I don't feel entirely accurate calling myself a surrogate anymore. To mem that implies as if it's something you can still do/will do. You don't call yourself a teacher if you've now taken up nursing.
I don't know if I'm an Intended Mother-- I don't know if we will pursue a surrogacy for ourselves.
So, it's an odd place to be-- where I'm at now.
-Michelle
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